1040

星期二去看了jason ma 主演的1040....
在那天才发现原来真的有很多艺人是基督徒....
哈哈...
在那天我们很早就到了..吃东西...然后等了好久才入场....
刚好当天我posting noon shif...刚好ade买到票给我....还有好几个刚好...就把我带到dream centre 看1040咯...
讲回电影吧....
真得蛮好看一下....也让我更明白自己究竟要如何做了..让我更了解...
这部电影的时间真的来的刚好.....
虽然最后发生点事...那晚也很累...但是一切值得..

烦繁翻

最经开始posting....生活开始忙碌....人也开始充实....但是要付出代价的...就是吃饭时间也没有....回来就大觉睡....真的很累啊...开始吃不消...加上最经又失眠....每晚都睡不着觉...弄得自己更累...幸好现在做早...所以下午还可以休息...但是接下来的几天又做下午..哪来的时间休息呢????
这就是第一个繁.....


那第二个翻呢????又是什么意识????当然就是代表我在床上翻来翻去....睡不着觉咯....这样真的非常非常辛苦....超想睡但有睡不到....唉...弄到我整天都bler bler 的.....

最后的烦就是说我最经的烦恼....到现在我才发现原来我是那么不重要的....哈哈...超讽刺的...就算再怎么不熟的朋友sms你...我想你也会回复几句....但是原来看起来对我好像很关心的人...只会sms来问这个问那个....如果我不会就说我什么什么....但是当别人回了他的信息问些不懂的问题时...就开始消失的无影无终...当另外一个人问回同样的问题时...那个人我就叫他a...a就会马上回复他...有实际的就叫那位仁兄代为转告一声...不然就会变得没回复...你们时常说我emo...不喜欢跟你们说我究竟发生什么事...为什么会不开心....那你们为何不想想自己又做过什么...伤害了别人还希望别人能开开心心的当什么事都没发生过吗????我真的做不到....虽然很早以前就发现这个事实...可是自己的鸵鸟心态一直比自己逃避...说你们不是故意忽略我...不是故意看不到我....我记得自己还笨到祷告神能给我一颗宽宏大量的心...给我一颗大方而不小气的心....我还记得每次我都会在祷告时一直哭一直哭...就好像神在说...孩子...他们不是故意的...他们真的很关心你的...放开心胸吧...不要为了小事而不开心.....不要再为这些事再掉眼泪了...那不值得....
但是一次又一次的释怀不代表我真的是没感觉得...一次一次的安慰自己..可是你们却一次又一次的伤害....我真的安慰自己安慰的有点累了...我是那么的信任你们...可是那又换到什么???只有一次一次的心碎...一次又一次的伤心....我真的累了...感到心已没有地方能在承受多一次的伤害了....放手了...就让心缝起来...这样至少还有少许的尊严留给自己....这样以后也可以避免受到伤害...不然又是自己在那舔伤口...我不想再这样活着...你们让我走吧...反正都没人会真真地关心我...那虚伪的温柔又要来做么了???无所谓了...真地无所谓了....你们照旧你们的生活...我相信现在的我能稳稳定定的面对你们...你们给的是虚伪的..那我也开始学会伪装了...真的太感谢你们教了我一堂宝贵的人生课程...

love...

又来分享关于"爱"了....
记得星期六ade问我们....你爱你自己吗????
如果你呢???你们会有什么答案???
那天真的把ade弄乱了...sorry啦dear.....
我不是故意的啦...真的不明白的....

我爱我自己吗????答案肯定是爱的...
但是自己的缺点真的好多好多....有时真的多到不懂要怎么做....
当我想到这个问题时..就想起form5写过的一篇作文...当时还是班上最高分...哈哈...有点骄傲....
那篇文章也是说关于自己的..那篇文章就只有老师和我自己知道....因为我是在解说我自己....还记得当时的心情....我很害怕...当作文交上去时....因为觉得自己离题了....没想到却拿最高分....我记得那篇文章是这样写的....我最喜欢自己乐观的个性....也最喜欢自己独立和爱帮助人的性格....却讨厌自己终会被人牵着鼻子走...和不会拒绝人...自卑....自己也是一个容易陷入幻想中....常常发白日梦...但是我就是喜欢这样的自己....觉得这样的我很白痴.....

但是现在的我呢????如果要我协会这样的文章....我会如何写呢????
经过这七个月的洗礼....真的....我不能确定.....
什么洗礼???当然就是"离家出走"到shah alam读书咯....haha...
在这七个月里面...我遇到和周围所发生的事...都是我从没想过的...
我没想过我会遇到我生活中两个最好的朋友....mannie&erica...虽然到现在我们都还不能说完任何的秘密...还是有东西藏在心里面...但是已经够了...还有各个很好的senior....帮我们很多忙的senior...帮我们揭开误会的senior...这就是神带给我最好的礼物...这是他给我的...我真的很感谢祂...甚至我觉得我来这里读书冥冥之中都是他的安排...对吗???
那我自己呢???经历那么多...我究竟变了吗....变好还是坏????
先说好的吧...没有妈妈在身旁...自己当然会学会独立....还有厨艺...哈哈...
但是我却开始变得阴晴不定....无端端会emo起来....无端端会开始感伤....有时还需要很多的时间恢复正常....乐观????真的好就没真真得开心....真真的笑...那平时的笑是什么...我不懂...也许我习惯伪装...但是我明明很开心...也很开心的笑...但是心好像被某种东西压住...有时会透不过气....甚至很想大声地叫...大声地喊....
所以我的好朋友们...对不起哦...你们一定被我弄糊涂了...本来开心的分享...突然我就会自己一个emo起来....真得对不起哦...

还有一样真的不会变得...就是说话的方式...想到什么就说什么....常常闹出好多得笑话...我不是故意的....平时我就是这样....还加上mannie&erica....就只有变本加厉的分....不会减少的....

我....是一个不会表达的女生...
我....是一个标准的水瓶座女生...
我....是一个白痴加上傻气的女生...
我....是一个在学着如何不会小气的女生...
我...是一个在学着宽恕的女生....
我....是一个粗鲁的女生...
我....是一个说话不经大脑的女生....
我....是一个不会照顾人的女生.....
我....是一个很多很多缺点的女生....
我....就是这样的一个女生...


我...还在等着我的有缘人出现....
我....还在等着我最爱的人出现....
我....还在等着他爱我比我爱他还深的那个他....
我.....还在等那个能接受我所有的缺点的人出现...
我....在等那个值得我去爱的人出现....
我....就是在这里傻傻的等.....
虽然不知那个他在哪....也不知几时才会遇到那个他...
但我最是在等....那个感觉最真的他来到我的面前....

1st time inject IM-1st week posting...

today friday..is my 1st week posting posting de last day...
today i have chance to do the IM procedure....but i think many long time..
but lastly i decide to do..cause no much chance to do the procedure...
but lunckly i can handle myself...hahaha...
this is good experience for me...very excited...
thank god cause give me a chance...


yesterday one patient is discharge....when i start posting he oso come in...then the 4 day i oso responsible for tat room...he n the relative is say thank for me when them want go back...tat time i feel i am important....cause the patient is give their life for us to care..if have mistake i can cause some ppl die...


last night we all celebrate buf'day for jenny...but when we prepare all thing n want give suprise to jenny...she just look like normal...like no suprise only....aiyoyo...y will like tat???i oso dun know..but i know jenny is unhappy this feel day...so..father lord...please heal jenny's heart...the unhappy feeling is go away from her...give her a peacful n happy life again...thank u jesus in ur name,amen....


junior n senior..really want to different????although some age of sem 1 de student is bigger than us oso...why need to different it..just some procedure is cannot do only..but y junior n senior oso can quarrel...just do observation only...the simply thing only...if all of u dun want to do ..just say la...i can do myself...but y both of u need to quarrel????cannot understand....really cannot..just one week u all oso cannot tahan....ai.....


see one indian boy..so cute...n so smarth...very little boy...him has a suture at his head...when we do the dressing for him...although his is swealing n feel pain..but he not say something..just sit silent only...i know is very painful..but he just say ok ok....kidding with us oso...very brave boy....today he discharge aldi...hope the suture at his head can fast get heal.....


conclusion for this week posting is very tired..but still happy n learne more thing...have one staff nurse voo is very childish ppl...she feel wat she just say...very happy part with her...she oso tell us many thing...thank u...voo...
hope u can do the good job on this more one year n go to oversea tat u like continue transfer ur happies to all the staff n the patient...
hope next week can do more well n can get course...

the 5 school day...

the 5 day at school after chicken pox...i come back to practicle...
haha..i need to spend more time to practicle cause i waste one week at my aunty house...
and we aldi take one line de nurse cap....
haha..me erica n mannie just take the cap n take photo...
now think back is have little stupid...
but still ok...
haha..cause we r excited n happy...
uproad some photo for ur see........

this 2 day...

today i come my aunty house again .....
last night we actually want to ktv...then cause aldi too night...so we sing at home...
haha....
then today after finish the thing need to do..we go to see movie.....

我们去看恐怖片...真的蛮恐怖一下...
可是电影一直在幻想和现实跳来跳去...弄到我有点混乱....
真的好久没去看电影了...和家人也是...
决定了....下次回家要请家人看电影....
因为大家也好久没看电影了...真确来说因该是去电影院看电影才对....
哈哈....

还有还有...
我阿姨家养了条小狼狗....每次就只会吠我...都不懂我得罪它什么....
害到我一直在那边叫....丢脸死了....
也气死我了....而且他喜欢时不时来吓我一下...害到我吃晚餐时差点啃到....

其实跟不熟的人去看戏真的不是很爽....唉.....
他们讲的东西我有不懂....我也没将多的时间去了解....
真的有点无奈...可是表妹叫到...又不好意识拒绝....有时真的很难做人....

还有阿...我真的不是因为我脸上的水痘印才不去教会的...你们不要想太多...因为我的脸皮才没那么薄....我也不会这么在意别人的....只是我觉得一个礼拜后我和大家的距离都拉远了...有点不知所措....相信我..给我些时间....让我好好的适应....很快的....你们的wanny...还是乐观的秀雯就会回来的...

one week school day

after the chicke pox...i go back to school for practicle...
this week is practic so many thing..
have subcut..IM...last office....figer of 8....n so many thing...
oh my god...is so waste my memory to memories all the procedure...
very difficult for me....
but still ok lo...
next week need to posting lo...
in med/surg b..haha..not meet miss k...
hope can geet so many cross lo....
include sem 1 de cross..hehe

sem 2 posting...

yeah yeah...next week start to posting lo...
unlunckly....i go to med/surg ward...maybe follow miss k.....
aiyaya..actually i scared to meet miss k....cause her is the CI most stress for procedure..so diffucult to take cross from her..but if i follow her i think i can learne more about procedure...
but if i follow her..i want to start remember many thing..like how the blood flow...places of pulse...and many many...very stress lo...
i at med/surg 3 week..then break 1 week...break mean holiday...haha..then do to ENT...i love ENT..cause the CI n the saff at there is good....very nice....
i see one senior can follow doctor to see the patient...the doctor at there oso very nice...
so i like tat ward....
but i go there 1 week only....
haha...
hapo this sem can take more cross than sem 1...

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现在又是睡不觉的夜晚....所以又上来大篇文章咯....
嘻嘻...
还在我阿姨家....因为明天没上学....又赖多一天咯....
每天晚上都去买宵夜吃.....不肥都难....
谁叫自己不能忍....气死我了....
每天都去买宵夜吃...现在知道屋子靠经mamak档也是不好的....
弄到我们每天去买东西吃....
mamak档不应该开24小时....这样我们就不会去买咯....
说来说去还是mamak档错.....
是啊...都是他们的错....
幸好我明天就回去了....不然就惨咯.....
每天这样吃法....就快连门都进不了....
哈哈阿哈哈.....这是开玩笑的啦....
怎么可能连门都进不了呢????

很讨厌自己的手....每次回不注意的拔自己的伤口....还把注定留疤的伤口变得伤上加伤...
真的好像把双手绑起来...这样脸就不会变丑了...
都不懂这么办才好....
谁可以救我阿??????帮帮我吧...我不要留疤.....不要一粒粒的出现在我脸上.....