失去方向

最近觉得生活失去了方向...
读书-没心情
posting-心不在焉
日常生活-睡觉
为什么呢???我也不懂
感觉好像没了一些东西..有点失落..积极不见了..
可能被人欺负的多吧...

算了..还是讲讲这几天吧..真的好像好久没来upload我的blog...
这几天还是在ENTposting...CI很好人..但很难给croses...所以没那几个crose而已...
今天做了个procedure....STO帮人拆线...但是不是很成功..老师叫我做多一次..ok 咯..星期一要做过...不过经验还不错...第一次..虽然没什么成功..但好过没做过咯..至少我尽力了..要谢谢CI这么帮我...

next week can go back to ipoh..hohoho..have 3 day off...back to wait new car...celebrate deeppavali...hahaha...but after back to shah alam..tat mean need start the revision week...start exam...oh..then mean i cannot play ad..cause i dun want waste my time n money to receive paper...so now need prepare ad..study study study.....ai...tired....

回来咯

又回来咯...真的好不舍...不知道自己在做么..
不过爸爸买了一辆新车..好开心..虽然不是很大但却是我喜欢的...
我告诉爸妈我要驾..他们却说不可以..怕我撞坏..真的气死我了..
不过当我下次回家时一定要说服妈妈给我驾新车...哈哈哈..
最近的posting真的差死了..procedure都做不好...谁来救救我...
最近看到自己的改变...其实不只是好是坏..唉..别管他..
deepavali是我做早...想回家...不懂回不回得成...希望可以回咯....

小失望...

今天有点小失望..因为本来要做的RA没做到...真的好失望..好不容易找到kes..要给时才知道有orally的..所以不能给injection...气死了..找到半死..到后来一场空...真的气死了..
RA没做到...要等下星期咯..希望在下星期能顺利...不然就真的等fail..我不想...

回家...

明天posting完后就要回家咯...爸爸回来载我哦...好开心...真的是好开心...感觉好像好久没回家咯...哈哈..其实hari raya才回了一趟...嘻嘻..这次回家又可以去吃"好料"...虽然会很累但还是希望能回家...这个星期我的宿舍只有一个人在..全部人都回家哦..应该说大家都好有默契...最精又有人被偷东西了..真的要小心哦...东西真的要锁好...不然被偷了就后悔莫及..这几天posting老师都叫我们背药的名字....真的背死我了...可是我又很喜欢这种方式...因为会帮我记得好多东西..也要谢谢CI....因为真的让我学到很多东西...

公主嫁到...

最经没事做时就一直看想看公主嫁到...这部戏真的期待好久了...可惜在这里很难看...没得租也没得买...但是妈妈答应我回家时就卖给我...真的好期待...好久没追戏了...根本不应许...但是还是忍不住download一些来看....真的超搞笑的..看到佘诗曼和陈豪之间的斗气...真的好好笑..可以调剂心情....哈哈...把读书的压力和不开心都可以忘掉...最经好多好开心的事发生...好朋友谈恋爱拉....可以回家啦...爸爸可能下星期会来载我....可以一家人出去咯...还可以叫爸爸买东西...平是妈妈都不给买的....虽然短短两三天...可是还是很开心..不然就是deepavali咯...depend爸爸要几时回....好羡慕慧仪回家两个星期...可是像之前说的...接下来我们也有...不过迟一点而已...到时就轮到我们开心啦....

说起来自己很幸运...要这么多人看顾我...哈哈...低潮的日子都要过去了....迎面而来的是开心..无忧无虑的好日子....很多事改变了...但是我觉得有一点又回到以前的自己...爱幻想..爱发呆...但是也许是好事....因为这样人会开心...也变得乐观...

最记得有一次....我觉得自己没了感觉...难过不会哭...开心不会笑...都不懂要怎样...那时真的很迷惑...不懂自己怎么了...可是要几个朋友的一句话...让我开通不少....虽然我和你不是常谈话..但你说的话永远都是敲醒我的那一个....很开心有你...也想谢谢你....希望你找工作顺利...

最近好像好多人都有问题....大家都有心事似的...当我有事时就说我不讲...但是你们还不是和我一样吗???说出来时要勇气的...这个我都知道...但是不说出来是痛苦的....我也知道...不过大家都有另一半...应该还有倾诉的对象...不过还是希望大家能开心些...

开心...

开心....开心..真的好开心....
一想到有很大的可能能回家过生日就超开心..虽然还有很久..可是还是值得安慰的...
还有..可能deepavali的时候也可能回家...希望星期四是早上shif...这样就有可能回家咯...
真的好想回家...想看我的妈咪...想看看baby...真的好想好想那里的一切...
虽然现在已经没有当初的担忧...当初的不习惯...但是还是家里最好...家里最舒服...虽然有时哪里都不去..但就是很满足...每次上回来都不舍得....但是我知道...一定要习惯..因为以后我还是会离家...到外地做工...甚至以后没得常回家...课业真得越来越忙..忙到自己也不懂能怎样...只要一个字想说...唉

单身快乐...

今天无端端的...又想起你...以为放下了..原来还是在心中最里面最里面的角落..真的好羡慕人家的幸福...哈哈..几时才会轮到我呢???
应该还要好久吧....搞不好一生孤独...这样也不错..一个人自自由由的...不受约束...喜欢做什么就做什么...
今天就要在这里大声宣告...单身快乐....
一个人...也可以逛街吃大餐...
一个人...也可以看电影...
一个人...也可以唱k...
一个人...真的可以做太多太多的事咯...

posting again...

next next week i will start posting again..4 week...2 week at ENT..2 week at Med/Surg..oh my God....i dun want...this is secong time i posting for this sem...1st time i posting is Med/Surg-2 week...ENT-1 week...this time is only reverse...i dun want..tat is boring at same ward..i want to difference ward...but how can i do..ai...dun like oso cannot do anything...stupid guy tat person who do the posting time table...always give same ward for me..many procedure cannot do...please..i dun want like sem 1..many courses is not complete..i need course..please...after posting is revision week..then is summative..then posting again 2 week...then is my break...yeah...but still long i say tat..but anywhere time is passes so fast..so let me count dow for my break...

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yesterday erica&jenny&wai yee go to time square shopping...wuwu..i no money..and oso something accident happen...so i decided not follow them go...hoho..but when i saw the beautiful shoes..i have a little bit sad cause i no new shoes....wu....wu....but like mom say..i have many shoes..all of them still new...cause i din wear...haha...and oso i din have so mant money to buy..i know if yesterday i have go..sure i will buy ..cause i cannot tahan when i saw the thing i like...so i decided not follow is smart decision...but mom is promise me..can buy new one before chiness new year...so..that mean...i can buy new cloth..new shoes..all the thing at here when chiness new year...i want like this year..buy many thing...so start now need save money...actually until now oso have some clothes is din wear by me....so...if let my mom know..i think she will scold me..so i only keep at hostel..din bring back to ipoh....haha..very miss the time i shopping..both of my hand is full..until i cannot take any more plastic bag...then i only will come back..i will buy for my mom..for my brother...oso for my father...so everytime i say no money to my mom..i will say cause i buy the thing for them...haha..my mom oso dun know want how to say me..cause i really have buy for them..many ppl say me manja..yes..this is true..cause i am the only girl at my house..all the ppl oso treat me very good..very care me...so when i decided come shah alam study..my aunty ask me every week back to her house..say worry about me..but i want to identification to them i really can live myself when i leave home..so if my aunty call me and ask me go..i wounld say i want go..cause if i go to my aunty house..she will prepare all the thing give me bring back...haha..but every time i refuse..she oso will bring to me..i very luncky cause have family like this...but i dun want them treat me like children...i'm not children..i know how to take care myself..
have one happy news..maybe..maybe i can go home for celebrate my buf'day..cause my birthday is at monday..maybe tat week is holiday for chiness new year..so i can celebrate with my family..hohoho...if really..tat good....worry about summative..cause i blur blur about some subject...scare need receive paper..one paper need RM50..expensive..so i really need hardworking to study..save the money for receive..can have more money to shopping..哈哈....

睡不着觉..

好久好久没上来upload post 了...记得对上一次上来只是换了design...
先要说...好久不见...又是选在半夜时候upload post...怀疑自己神经病...一整天下来真么多时间都不要写..半夜就有心情跑来upload...haha...anyway..想跟有留意我的blog的你们分享一下最经的生活...
最经有什么大件事发生呢???哈哈..真的超多的..
话说..自从放假回来后..就很忙很忙..但是真的不知忙什么???
assigment???有啦...放假前tutor给我们三个assigment...回来之后就开始忙着找资料..taip power point 咯...
考试???也有...我们还有A&P的formative 2 要考..花了一星期去读...最惨的是明明差不多读完..打算星期四晚解决它..他却告诉我们下个星期一才考...妈的...有没有搞错??我读到这么辛苦..却要等多两天..害我心野了..考得不好...真的是他妈的...而且那个tutor时常恐吓我们..每次上他的课都害到我好像坐过山车...差点心脏病发...
还有下星期surgical nursing 的formative 2也要考了..这张是最后一张考试纸..现在还是努力读书咯...因为不想被fail..所以要加油咯....
play zombie???也有...因为想破多几关..所以也会spend一点时间来跟zombie沟通..哈哈..最经也不懂怎么了..老是头痛...看来病菌又想我了..想来找我...开始伤风..咳嗽...
又来了..都不懂要生病几次...抵抗力真的那么差吗???
最经压力超大...担心这个...担心那个...还得豆豆都出来say HI了....
睡不着觉就来发牢骚..haha
真的蛮有用的..嘻嘻....